If I had to link them by cause-effect:
1 I am alone
2 I hate going to school
3 I dont finish my projects nor homework because I have no interest left
4 I hate feeling that way because my grades will go down
5 College depends on my final grades and on a letter I cant write
6 I cant write the letter because of points 1,2,3 & 4
7 I am very stressed
8 Stress makes me anxious, dismotivated, unhappy, unfocused etc.
9 I just dont understand life anymore
10 I hate myself
Every time I feel suicidal, I stop and think how unfair it would be for my parents. And yet Im not conforted at all, I still feel sad and frustrated, heeeelp!